Currently No Silence By ATB see related

/sigh/

For more depressing than leaving all you have behind, for nothing, is to be denied the right to go back to it. Especially when its due to incopetance.

I haven't done one of these in a while, so this bitch rant may be different from my usual!

Let me first say, forgive me for the words I am about to type, if you don't like curse words, please do not continue reading..

G** D** Mother Fuc**n bull shi* fuc**n SH*T!! What the fuck, I'm so fuckin depressed right now. I don't know what to do, I just want to go down range, do my tour, and come back alive. put my money into a little house or condo, just like my grandma lindas or my best friends the 'z'. Move my mom in, and just work any kind of job, as long as I can be home. All these fucking bases suck, and the hours are ridiculous for the pay, I'd rather be strugleing, than dealing with this shit! I can handle it, its just WHY? What the hell posseses people to want to live like this, having every asspect of your life controlled by the G O V! Where you eat, what you eat, where you go!! Where you can't go, and how long you're 'approved to do anything!!

No one knows how much freedom they have, untill they're stupid enough to sign the paper and have it all taken from you!!

WHAT the FUCK is wrong with this world!?!?!? The more you fucking know, the more it hurts! They said it'd get better as I got deeper into my career, but I just keep going further and further away from everything I've ever know, or loved! First the east coast, then Germany, and soon the sand box hell of the world in the Arabic deserts....    and I actually thought of staying in to see Japan, who knows by then, but all I want to do right now is go home. Since August the most I've seen my friends and family is 2 weeks, and its looking like its going be even longer before I'm going to go home, and even then its only for 15 days, then it'll be 6-8 more months! If I don't get hurt while I'm out there..

7 is my favorite number, you know why?
I'm sure it's easy to guess. It reminds me of Heaven, and God.
triple 7
777
I'm sure he has a mission and a purpose for me, and that mission was to open my eyes, and now my purpose is to open your eyes.

I've never imagined the world in this light, and sometimes all you need is a different perspective.
I never realized how attached I was to the people back home, and how I miss them so much now more than ever.
I used to think that I'd be able to live without these people, and maybe I can, but its tearing me apart.

1 year later!!!

Wow, its been over a year since that hungry little officer craved my taco bell!

And alot has happened in just the coarse of a year. For instence, I'm in Germany right now! Holy shit private!! And theres the other thing, the reason I'm in Germany. I'm in the USArmy!! Who woulda ever guessed.

To continue with complete randomness, the real Turks are after me!!! They don't like Americans very much I guess, alas the irony of a FFVII fan! :(

The piano is such a beautiful instument.
German is hard to learn, why couldn't I have gone to Japan!?!? I know so much more of their culture and language, but we have hardly any main stream influence from European culture, other than movies like the itallian job, or Americans with really bad fake british accents.

Or Peter from Family Guy going, BOOBIDY BOBIDY BOO!!

/sigh/ I ahve a long journey ahead of me, wish me well shadows of the past who linger here no more...

~ja ne~
.where he no longer found to be himself, but in the light of his heart he tells no lies, you see it is truly him.

                                                     .for green brings out my eyes, I still stay true to the colors red and black.

nothing

So this is gonna be short.

I drove out to Alameda  and Federal for Taco Bell. just because. Then came all the way back down to centennial park to eat it, well I've got two minors in my car and its past midnight, and two cops show up. Here it is, he comes up and says 'what are you doing' and I go 'just eating taco bell' and he goes, 'mmmm taco bell'

It was tight, and I felt it was worthy of a blog.

lol, Peace PPLS

~ja ne~

.in hopes of finding something, he found nothing. when he finally gave up, it came to him.

                    .if everyone around you is suddenly wearing green, wear blue!.  tee hee

Well< now I know no one exists hear anymore. lol.

HA HA HA xanga update coming soon. I have a rant, yet I have to ponder on it for a momment, and I'm low on battery.

                                                                                                                                 .no sleep for the wicked.

Its been a while. Not that it matters.

But I just had to say, I'm sexy. and my g/f is beautiful and even sexier!!

~ja ne~

*what does "LMAO" mean?..*

                                         .you should alway save yourself for after marriage, but thats not always the case... I wish it were the case with me, but at least I know me and monica are meant for eachother.